I haven't had the time in a while to write... I love yall and really really am sorry for not checking in. It is good though that people care and worry...
So with that said... I have had quite a bit happen in the last month or so...
#1... I got engaged again... to the same man... Brian
#2... We lost both of our jobs on December 2nd...
#3... We decided to move out of Owosso because of financial, economic reasons, and be closer to his family and in a better area for jobs...
#4... Bought furniture and a new mattress...
#5... Moved... scrubbed old apartment from top to bottom to ready it for the slum lord...
#6... Got rid of a lot of old baggage that weighed not only my physical being down but also my spiritual soul too. ie, people, places, things, and situations that were just stupid and detrimental to my happiness.
Let me say this... I HATE FUCKING MOVING! There I said it. I love the fact that my new place doesn't have any wasted space but it was the shit getting to this point that I hated and don't want to have to do anytime soon.
But in those few days of busting ass just to get out by the 30th of December... there were these brief moments where I could swear that I was on the right track in life... And that it was time to let go of a lot of ghosts that haunted my life.
So I think moving spurred something that maybe essential to me living a happy life...
I also went to MY family Christmas party this year and things ended up being pretty good. My mother and father were there and they were decent and didn't make me feel uncomfortable... or was it that I don't give a shit about what they think anymore? Either way Brian and I had a great time. My sister was there with the baby and she is a doll and is so cute. My mom adores the baby and that's the way that it should be. Grandparents are supposed to love their children's kids.
My dad actually talked to Brian... LOL go figure.
We finished getting the Owosso apartment completely cleaned and everything moved out on the 30th as planned. So now my new place looks all cluttered and what not.
I love this new apartment. It's in Grand Blanc and its all the way in the back of the complex and its nice and quiet. We live on the second floor and barely ever have to turn our heat on... There are lots of big mature trees around here in the back so its quite a nice lil place. Its really deceiving when you pull into the front of the complex buildings...
Brian set up the fish tanks for our fish and everything is getting sorted according to where its "supposed" to be. LOL. New apartment is quite a bit smaller than the old one but then again.. there isn't any wasted space. We just need to get rid of the things that we don't absolutely need... Which is hard because he wants to keep everything and won't compromise... I need my Aunt Jean to help us with that... she gets the shit out and takes no prisoners.
I am a little depressed about the job thing... I am am going to be collecting unemployment for a bit cause I am just burnt out from the whole bs that went on at the Mental Health company. So I am not completely hurting for money. Besides... I didn't have to work Christmas and won't have to work New Years... CHING! This is the first time in 4 years I haven't had to work it all. I miss the people that I worked for at the company but it wasn't worth having to sacrifice any more time on some job that wasn't going to get you anywhere unless it was more broke and living pay check to pay check ya know? So I am optimistic about trying to find new employment out in the new area. :)
OH! and the new place has a bathtub!!!! another CHING! 3 YEARS with out a bathtub in the place of residence takes a toll on a girl I tell ya. So my happy azz... layed in that tub till I was pruney. Especially after all the moving and lifting and other crap that we had to do. I thank god for the bathtub.
I am feeling a lot better with life... maybe it was the elimination of the shitty things and people that helped end my frustration with life and why things are the way they are. All in all... I feel pretty damn good and am awaiting the fighting that Brian and I will be doing about where to put things and what we need to toss out...
I look forward to this new beginning...
Whiskey
So with that said... I have had quite a bit happen in the last month or so...
#1... I got engaged again... to the same man... Brian
#2... We lost both of our jobs on December 2nd...
#3... We decided to move out of Owosso because of financial, economic reasons, and be closer to his family and in a better area for jobs...
#4... Bought furniture and a new mattress...
#5... Moved... scrubbed old apartment from top to bottom to ready it for the slum lord...
#6... Got rid of a lot of old baggage that weighed not only my physical being down but also my spiritual soul too. ie, people, places, things, and situations that were just stupid and detrimental to my happiness.
Let me say this... I HATE FUCKING MOVING! There I said it. I love the fact that my new place doesn't have any wasted space but it was the shit getting to this point that I hated and don't want to have to do anytime soon.
But in those few days of busting ass just to get out by the 30th of December... there were these brief moments where I could swear that I was on the right track in life... And that it was time to let go of a lot of ghosts that haunted my life.
So I think moving spurred something that maybe essential to me living a happy life...
I also went to MY family Christmas party this year and things ended up being pretty good. My mother and father were there and they were decent and didn't make me feel uncomfortable... or was it that I don't give a shit about what they think anymore? Either way Brian and I had a great time. My sister was there with the baby and she is a doll and is so cute. My mom adores the baby and that's the way that it should be. Grandparents are supposed to love their children's kids.
My dad actually talked to Brian... LOL go figure.
We finished getting the Owosso apartment completely cleaned and everything moved out on the 30th as planned. So now my new place looks all cluttered and what not.
I love this new apartment. It's in Grand Blanc and its all the way in the back of the complex and its nice and quiet. We live on the second floor and barely ever have to turn our heat on... There are lots of big mature trees around here in the back so its quite a nice lil place. Its really deceiving when you pull into the front of the complex buildings...
Brian set up the fish tanks for our fish and everything is getting sorted according to where its "supposed" to be. LOL. New apartment is quite a bit smaller than the old one but then again.. there isn't any wasted space. We just need to get rid of the things that we don't absolutely need... Which is hard because he wants to keep everything and won't compromise... I need my Aunt Jean to help us with that... she gets the shit out and takes no prisoners.
I am a little depressed about the job thing... I am am going to be collecting unemployment for a bit cause I am just burnt out from the whole bs that went on at the Mental Health company. So I am not completely hurting for money. Besides... I didn't have to work Christmas and won't have to work New Years... CHING! This is the first time in 4 years I haven't had to work it all. I miss the people that I worked for at the company but it wasn't worth having to sacrifice any more time on some job that wasn't going to get you anywhere unless it was more broke and living pay check to pay check ya know? So I am optimistic about trying to find new employment out in the new area. :)
OH! and the new place has a bathtub!!!! another CHING! 3 YEARS with out a bathtub in the place of residence takes a toll on a girl I tell ya. So my happy azz... layed in that tub till I was pruney. Especially after all the moving and lifting and other crap that we had to do. I thank god for the bathtub.
I am feeling a lot better with life... maybe it was the elimination of the shitty things and people that helped end my frustration with life and why things are the way they are. All in all... I feel pretty damn good and am awaiting the fighting that Brian and I will be doing about where to put things and what we need to toss out...
I look forward to this new beginning...
Whiskey
