I don't wanna post. But I have to. So here's my post.
Whiskey is GOOD...
Whiskey is sweet when you get enough ......whiskey is smooth and always cool
Whiskey is soothing, and makes you feel all giddy and giggly and if you're the right person....whiskey makes you feel SEXY.
Whiskey has body....body that's fluid to the touch and tantalizes your senses...
Whiskey goes straight to your head and says if you love me, you'll hold on to me...or I'll flow into oblivion ....no pissing me away.
Whiskey can give you a headache, but you want more whiskey the next day...*snickering*....Whiskey is as clear and crisp as water. YUMMM...
Gimme more whiskey *giggling*

as written by Ms Gina



He he I found that on your old blog with the chinese dragon on the butt and I had forgotten all about it soooo.... I STOLE IT! Hope you don't mind doll. Wanted to add it to my collection of posts.

It's so funny how some people think they know what they want... but then never take the steps to attain that which they want. Happiness is fleeting my friends.

I have a friend that will remain ANON and they think that the state is going to take care of them just because someone told them in the past, or they got it into their head that just because you are fat... you deserve to get SSI or other governmental subsidies. There is no reward for being Lazy.

ANON thinks that their case worker will take care of them, and will sign them up for school, and make sure that they have a job, and hold their hand through life so they won't have to do anything for themselves. Ok a case workers job is to assist YOU in taking those steps in becoming a real person. They also take steps to insure that the government doesn't have to support your ass for the rest of your life.

Ok I am fat. I have been all my life.... but that doesn't stop me from leading a good and productive life. Now at the moment I don't have a job... but that's not from the lack of trying or being lazy. I am not making up illness' to sign up for SSI, or even trying to take advantage of every person I know just to survive. I have news for you ANON... life does not work that way... eventually you won't have friends at all and you won't ever be a real person.

You say that being with or around you mother makes you happy... but all you are doing everyday is sitting there, in front of that computer letting your brain and your body rot. You are wasting your time in this world and there is nothing that anyone can do for you... You have to decide whether life is worth living as it is now, or if you want better.

If you want better, then you have to stop putting off your responsibilities for fleeting things like the happiness that your mother "apparently" brings you. Or the fact that I spent my hard earned money on things for you to take care of an animal and it ended up put outside and left for dead by your hands... NOT anyone else's. I remember how you begged and pleaded for it because it was something that would make you happy. You rarely ever took the time to be with said animal and the fact that you threw it out without having any regard for how it is now to take care of itself... is disgusting! You never cleaned up after it. I was the one who gave it the flea baths, I was the one who bought all the supplies for said animal. It was your responsibility to take care of that little creature. As soon as that animal came into that house, IT WAS YOUR RESPONSIBILITY to take care of it, NOT anyone else's. Its called animal cruelty and you could go to jail for it. But, AGAIN, you aren't taking care of your responsibilities.

You couldn't even go to the college to take care of signing up for school. I bet you haven't even called on that job at helping hand yet either? Nor are you looking for a job at all...

This is why... so many people are turned off by you. This is why most people wouldn't give you the time of day. You have 3 totally awesome people in your life that TRULY give a fuck about you and what you want to become. But you lie to us, you take advantage of us, you cause drama for us, and you even talk about us behind or backs... yet we are the ones that are there for you unconditionally. I would like to see how you treat your enemies.

Obviously, my friendship and the friendship of others isn't worth much... considering that you keep taking advantage of me and my generosity. But then again you don't view yourself as being worth much so how can you feel anything for anyone else? It's been that way ever since the hotel incident. I really don't think you want to change...

PROVE ME WRONG!

Another good one on how I feel at the moment


Cascada
Everytime We Touch

I still hear your voice, when you sleep next to me.
I still feel your touch in my dreams.
Forgive me my weakness, but I don't know why.
Without you it's hard to survive.

Cause everytime we touch, I get this feeling.
And everytime we kiss I swear I could fly.
Can't you feel my heart beat fast, I want this to last.
I need you by my side.
Cause everytime we touch, I feel the static.
And everytime we kiss, I reach for the sky.
Can't you hear my heart beat so. I can't let you go.
I want you in my life.

Your arms are my castle, your heart is my sky.
They wipe away tears that I cry.
The good and the bad times, we've been through them all.
You make me rise when I fall.

Cause everytime we touch, I get this feeling.
And everytime we kiss I swear I could fly.
Can't you feel my heart beat fast, I want this to last.
I need you by my side.
Cause everytime we touch, I feel the static.
And everytime we kiss, I reach for the sky.
Can't you hear my heart beat so I can't let you go.
I want you in my life.

Cause everytime we touch, I get this feeling.
And everytime we kiss, I swear I could fly.
Can't you feel my heart beat fast.
I want this to last. I need you by my side.

Performed by Rascal Flatts
While You Loved Me
(Kim Williams/Marty Dodson/Danny Wells)


If I ever write the story of my life
Don't be suprised if you're where it begins
I'd have to dedicate every line on every page
To the memories we made, while you loved me

I was born the day you kissed me
And I died inside the night you left me
But I lived, oh how I lived
(I lived) While you loved me

I'd start with chapter one, love innocent and young
As the morning sun on a new day
Even though I know the end, Well I'd do it all again
'Cause I got a lifetime in, while you loved me

I was born the day you kissed me
And I died inside the night you left me
But I lived, oh how I lived
(I lived) While you loved me

I was born the day you kissed me
And I died inside the night you left me
But I lived, oh how I lived
(I lived) While you loved me

I know most of you are worried and wondering where I have been. I have just been layin low and tryin to take life as it comes. Some things are clearer than what they were in the last post. There has been alot of things that have happened since I last posted about playing ball with GOD. Oh and my Chunky Monkey.

I am still trying to sort things out in my head and get things in order to make a decsion. In the process of waiting and sorting I have found a good job, that pays pretty well considering that its in the same field I just wanted to get out of. I was kind of jaded after leaving my last job because the patients just weren't being taken care of the way there were supposed to be. I don't think more than like 8 people in 20 years ever graduated from our program. I am surprised that their families didn't sue the Community Mental Health because they didn't do the job that our program was supposed to do.

So I am working now for a place that does exactly what they say they are going to. The rehabilitate people with mental illness and they go on to lead healthy and full lives. I checked out their website before my interview and OMG I was soooo inspired.

They have about 40 acres of land and everything is right there. All the houses and they have their own school and media center. It's amazing! They even have a barn full of animals and a green house for the people to have something to do and feel good about. I am impressed to say the very least!

So that is a great place to start trying to get my mind off of things and workin things out...

Although many other things in my life are rearin their ugly heads. Like friends that steal friends. Friends that Fuck best friends and evil shit like that... well I won't get into it right now but there will be a pissed off post about that later.... SCREAMS ::: YAY A RANT :::

Somethings have been happening in my life that I cannot explain right now... Please just pray that I make the right decisions and that I follow where MY heart leads me.

I guess what I need is someone to take control of this issue with my parents and tell me what to do or make the decsion for me. I found that on my friends site and really... thats what I needed to hear and read!

I just got off the phone with my sister. I called her to talk about issues with my guest list and how I had to whittle it down because if my parents don't help then I cannot invite all that they want to be there... She was in the same room as them when I started talking to her about it. I thought she would move and talk to me about it some other place of the house... NOPE!

So I am in the middle of telling her that as I know that half of the family on my side won't show up because they are from all over the US, and saying... but what if they do show up and not RSVP? I was saying that I cannot turn them away after they invested that much into getting there... My dad was then in the background of the conversation yelling that they aren't going to show up. That they will probably send something in the mail, but basically made it sound like I wasn't important enough to come out and see the wedding! He was screaming in the background

I asked 5 things of my parents...

1. Meet Brian's mom and dad.
2. let us know if they wanted anymore people on the list
3. let us know if they would need a hotel room for the night before
(because they are in the wedding)
4. To just pretend to be happy for me
5. To help us financially with the wedding if they could.
(ok this could possibly mean helping with my wedding dress, helping with the cost of invitations, helping with the postage of said invitations...)