I know you come here. For what? Who knows. Maybe you feel guilty, maybe you even feel that you are entitled to some part of my life or information that I am unhappy or something. Who knows what you think, who knows what your intentions are. Who the fuck really cares.

I am not unhappy. I am not miserable. I am going out and having the time of my life simply because I can. I have friends who are not vindictive and people who really care for me. I take refuge and sanctuary in many of my friendships. Whether they be male or female is not your concern. Nor should you be able to make any judgment on my character simply because I hang out with men. If I have dinner, watch a movie, or even have sex with them is not something that you will ever be allowed to have an opinion on. I thank you for your little comment on my MYSPACE page.

If you were a real man... you would have left a real comment. But then again intelligence is not measured by penis size or your sex drive. If it were, you would be lacking in many areas.

I loved you... Parts of me even still love you. But the thing that hurts me the most is the fact that you think... that I would do something to you, your family, your stupid car. You spent 4 years with me and you stayed, lived, slept, fucked, possibly loved a crazy, psychotic killer, idiot? I am not stupid. But you are... if you think that I would want to hurt you in any way.

Am I happy that you are miserable... sometimes it tickles my fancy I have to admit, but I certainly don't wish you any harm. I do wish you the same level of self doubt, and the fact that I no longer trust people, these gifts you have bestowed unto me. You did not have to handle the end of "US" as you did. You still don't have to be an asshole. But you choose to be. You choose your unhappiness and really I believe Karma is not through with you yet. The only thing that I am even mad at is the fact that I wasted my life with you. I wasted 4 years of being myself and finding someone who wouldn't do this bullshit to me. Who wouldn't make me feel that I had to submit to several acts of abuse just to make you happy. Your pleasure for my pain... I could have already been with someone who truly may have loved me.


You know nothing about me. You never wanted to. You were too busy with your doom and gloom and painting a picture of me to you family that you NEVER took the time. You say that I am a liar and that all I did was take from you. I find that funny. You said that I took all the things that you left in my apartment and that I TOOK the rings that we spent 3 days trying to find together, just so that I could hock them. I NEVER asked for any of that. You gave it to me. And who was the one who continues to tell me things like... "I will take care of it"... or even the day when you left to be with her... "I love you"

Why the hell would I give up something that you bought me that meant more than all the money in the world? Those rings that I wore on my hand meant more to me because they were a reminder of the fact that maybe there was a time or one moment that you truly loved me. I figured, why would you spend that much money on something unless you really wanted to do it? Why would you promise to marry me... if you KNEW! you did not love me. I believed in you, your family, what they said to me. That is what those rings mean to me. So NO, I won't and have not taken them to a pawn shop. I will eventually trade up and get something that means something for myself. So while you are slinging names around and talking shit about me to perfect strangers... why don't you look in the mirror....

Thats the difference between you and I. I am not all about the money. I am not materialistic... I didn't have to have anything to make me feel loved. I let you have what you wanted when you wanted...

Look at all the things that you have... Purely because you lead me on for 4 years making me believe that you were happy and in love with me... but yet here I am happier than I think I ever truly was with you.

You are more than welcome to continue to visit this site or any of my others. But All I ask of you is that you at least say something instead of lurking around like a coward, tryin to find something to make yourself smell more like roses than your rotting carcass of a heart already does.

I love you but I am over you. I will eventually forgive you but it will take a lot. But then again... you aren't worried about forgivness are you?

Well I have finally subscribed to Eharmony and so far am having a good response to my ad. Dating is so hard. But I tell you what I wouldn't have it any other way at the moment. I can see who I want and I don't have to answer to anyone. My apartment is my place and I can chose to have anyone visit that I want, when I want and for what I want. I no longer have to even ask permission for my friends and family to come over and visit.

So there are several people that I have started dating and so far its been fun. I have went out and danced and really have had a great time with people that aren't stuck in the mud. People who actually want to live life instead of always being inside and never doing anything. A few I have good connections to and I love being able to make new friends.

There is one in particular that I have my eye on. He respects me. He opens doors for me and basically is a man that is courteous and loving by nature. Not standoffish and rude like Brian. He is also considerate that I work alot and makes time for me. He also supports the idea that I have dreams and goals that I want to achieve. So who knows where it may lead. Hopefully to something that will last and be true. :)

Work is going great. There are somethings that are alot different from my last job in Owosso but things will go better once I am fully trained and am in the know of all the workings there. The people I work with are great and in the last 2 weeks I have worked 116 hours. So I am on my way.

It feels really good that my bills are being paid and on time. I am empowered by the fact that I don't need or want a man to be in control anymore.

All in all at this time... Life is great.

I have been more than civil to you and adult about this... You are so lucky that I am not someone else... That I loved you enough to let you go. You never let me walk out on you all those times because you are a selfish asshole.

I was the only one trying in our relationship to change. You never were the problem...??? Bullshit.

You should feel bad Brian! You should be the one having to go to counceling. NOT ME!

Straight up you fucked with my life. You let someone walk into our lives and completely take everything that you and I have built the last four years... IN JUST 3 WEEKS.

You have no regard for anything of mine because you took anything that truly mattered. My heart, my trust in anyone including myself, my self worth.

The only attitude that I exude from me is the fact that I am more than angry... If you don't understand that... because apparently thats all I did was cheat on you... then you really never were in it in the first place. You never wanted us to work thats why you gave up so quickly.

I worked my ass off Brian for six fucking months just to find the job that you met Cherie at. Then you cheated on me. WHAT THE FUCK AM I SUPPOSED TO FEEL? Relieved? Thankful? Because some woman walked into our lives and decided that she was going to try anything, say anything to get you in her bed, to get you from me, to whisper promises of the future so great that they are more than you and I can ever attain? The fact that you were so weak minded and disrespectful of me and my wishes and the love that I had given you, that you went ahead and while I slept talked to her on the phone to plan your deception. I even answered it when it was her and handed you the phone when you had just gotten out of the shower... I gave you to her on a silver platter.

But It doesn't have anything to do with her??? then why are you already starting a life with her? Why is it so easy for you to blame all your fucked up problems on me and so easy just to walk away from me, our lives and our cats, our home, our plans and our future?


I NEVER NEVER NEVER TOUCHED, KISSED, MADE LOVE TO ANYONE BUT YOU IN THE LAST 4 YEARS. I GAVE MY ALL TO YOU. I GAVE FULLY OF MYSELF. And all you could do was cheat on me and throw me to the trash the very first chance you got.

You can believe what you want... but Rochelle, Shawn, my sister and anyone else that is close to me will tell you... I would have told someone.

I WOULD HAVE LEFT BEFORE ANYTHING EVER HAPPENED!!! I WOULD NEVER HAVE AGREED TO MARRY YOU... IF THERE WERE EVER SOMEONE ELSE!

IF YOUR PARENTS OR FAMILY HAD PULLED ME ASIDE AND SAID"SHERRY BRIAN ISN'T HAPPY!!" I WOULD HAVE LEFT YOU.

I told you that I would leave you before you would have to choose between your family and me. I would have walked out...

I listened to everything you said...You are soooo cold. "I've given up. Sorry it didn't work out." What the fuck is that bullshit?"

"I have been too honest with you or youwould not know what you do in the first place" What I do???

YOU were never honest with me. Everything you told me, everytime that you whispered in my ear that you loved me, or held me, was a fucking lie. And you expect me to just walk away and be perfectly ok just because you let me have stuff that should have been my right in the first place.

Sorry to say pal life isn't just that cut and dry. I am glad though, that it is for you.

Answer all my questions... and I will walk away. But you will know how you have destroyed me. You already know you have. You make me feel like trash. I know you laugh about it because the last time I asked you anything... you giggled.

I asked you... to take care of the candle situation. YOU, not your mother your brother or the ass down the street. YOU. Because YOU know what is mine and what was bought. Photos... I had a shoe box full of photos that are missing... the blender that you don't need because you have one on your mixer, my cd's, my computer games, like sims and all that. Its all in your stuff. DO you want your staff thingy that was behind the computer desk, left over books, and dolphin shit, clothes, othe misc stuff that you left behind to torture my soul further?

I want my life back. I want the answers... I want to be able to be happy again... Thats all I want...

If thats not adult and civil then I am sorry... But then you tell me what I am supposed to feel, do, want. You have no idea, what you have done to me. What hurts the most... is that you and I were so close you walking away and not letting me say what I needed to. You threw me away.

You don't care.


If I had the photos I would give them to you, I do not I have gone through everything again they are not there, have you checked the hall closet? The blender is mine my grandma specifically said to make sure I got it. I did leave your few computer games there we never could find all the sims disks remember. The candle stuff I will drop off sometime this week

What questions? And you were caught several times online counts meeting some guy downsate for a date saying that you love him, when supposed to be seeing Rochelle or Barb counts. Flirting with guys online then saying you can't wait to see them at school counts.

I tried to get things to change YOLU NEVER LISTENED and still don't nothing ever registers with you. In my heart for a long time we had no plans and no future. I do care but you have said the same things over an over and I cannot make things any better by letting you yell at me.

I am going to take you to court. I am sorry but this is bullshit. I thought that at the very least you could have enough respect and moral character to not take things that I would want or need or things that I couldn't replace like Photos.

You completly have broken me and you know it... But thats the thing, You don't care. I will be making a report on Tuesday and I am sure that the police will contact you after that.

I have been more than civil. I gave you everything you wanted... including a free fucking pass out of my life. You are the one that continues this shit. All I want is my stuff and the things that are due to me.

Candles and all supplies included. I will be having a police escort for that as well. Because I have the receipts for everything.

Have a great life and when you become the same way and she fucks you over like Lisa did... I won't be there to pick up your pieces this time. Nor will I pay your way to afford life like I did before. You asked that of me and look where it got me. My car and all the promises you made to me are broken. You just didn't have the balls to let me end it. You don't even realize what you have put me through. You and your family were my life... But even that you took from me. You are so cold.


Until then

Sherry



You have no grounds to take me to court or involve the police.
If you want your candle stuff tell Kris she already told you she would bring it to you or you could go get it, you know that it is there and I do not have it. I told you any photos you wanted a copy of I would but allmost all were on the computer and you have a copy of.

And if you want to play the reciept card then I will take the bed and furniture. I have nothing of yours I have been more then generous so that I wouldn't feel bad, but your attitude has more then solved that problem. I have been too honest with you or you would not know what you do in the first place. And quit with the two year thing I never met Cherie until aftyer you did. If I had planned anything with her that long ago then I would have used all that payout money on her and me not you and me. If you want tyo be civil and adult I will be happy to communicate through email with you but if you can't just stop.

Brian,


Why can't you talk to me about what YOU did to ME? So apparently you never loved me and I was right when I said that I was just your glorified fucking roomate. There WITH YOU just to pay the way to what you wanted and then you throw me away like a piece of trash?

There were 3 times where I was going to leave you... you stood in my way and made me stay! If you wanted to be with other people fucking 2 years ago...
WHY THE FUCK DIDN'T YOU!!!

WHY DID YOU MAKE ME STAY AND WASTE MORE TIME ON YOU?
TAKING CARE OF YOU?
CRYING WITH YOU AND HOLDING YOUR HAND?
LOVING YOU WHEN YOU KNEW YOU NEVER LOVED ME?
MAKING LOVE TO A MAN THAT NEVER LOVED ME?
BELIEVING IN YOU?

3 FUCKING TIMES I ASKED YOU IF YOU WERE REALLY READY TO GET MARRIED... EVERYTIME YOU SAID YES!

HOW MANY TIMES WHEN YOU SAID "MY SHERRY" DID YOU REALLY THINK OF HER???

So how many other women were you with when you were with me? Was there ever a time when for one moment... you were truly honest with me? That you really loved me?

I gave you 4 years BRIAN! 4 years that you wasted and stole from me. I could have been with someone that actually gave a shit... loved me...