So I am laying in bed and I am sleeping dreaming away... I am in a beautiful green meadow like place and I am lying on my back on the ground. Their are people there in the back ground but I cannot see them. How many ? I donno... but they are there.

The only person I see is this man whom in character is a decent looking man so he is a kind of dark looking man. There are these black and white cheese cloth like material, mostly black, that is lined up on the edge of the meadow in a crude row. Not all in a perfect row but kinda haphazardly placed there.

I am laying there and I have no fear or am I wanting to get up so I trust this man? So he starts performing this kind of magic trick that I am thinking that when he does s certain something I am supposed to feel the gum that I am chewing pop for some reason...???

He goes over to the material and unfolds a black cloth and either places it over my face or his and all the while he is almost chanting something and then he goes and gets a white piece and does the same thing . Material is kinda see-through and I can still see. He is still chanting. He gets to the part where the trick is supposed to come to its out come and instead of feeling my gum pop in my mouth, or what I think was gum... right before he says the last "magic" word my private area heats up... and I am like what the fuck and then he stabs me with something down there.??

WTF??!! So I wake up and am laying in bed with the sheet over me and I am naked under it. But I never sleep on my back... Never! I laid there looking at the ceiling and looked over and Brian was there and sleeping away so he wasn't playin with me or anything to bring this on but what a fucking weird ass dream... its kind of scaring me... I am reeling at what the meaning is... It's 525am and just wanted to write it down so that I wouldn't forget..???

Weird!


Whiskey

i AM SO FREAKING OUT. My hands are shaking and I am about drinkin some whiskey. I don't think I have ever been so scared in my life... It shouldn't be this way with your parents.......... ugh Gotta go

PS I have a job interview in Hazelpark on Monday for a great job in my area....

I called my parents house today to see if they would get together with me to discuss their part, if any, in my wedding. I shook the entire time on the phone while I was talking. My mom said that Friday at 330pm is fine and I guess we are gonna go to dinner or something.

The fact that they are agreeing to get together with me to even go to dinner, much less talk to me, is in and of itself extraordinary... I AM SO SCARED!

So I will be there at my parents house at 330pm Friday to see where things go. I guess the worst thing they could say is that they don't want to have anything at all to do with the wedding, and they don't wish to contribute. Since my sister told them why we wanted to get together with them... I am sure that they want to at least be invited. Either way I have a back up person to walk me down the aisle if I need her. I called my Gram to see what she said about us getting married... she said she would as long as my dad said that he wouldn't.

Still feeling uneasy about the whole thing... I will get through this and it too shall pass...