I have never had such a hard time finding a job before in my life. The interview with Life Touch went well I think. It was really only a orientation where they gather prospective employees together and weed the good out of the bad. So I filled out the application and that job will start in August if they decide to hire me. SO... What do I do till then? I mean I have no money at the moment. In order to get to this job I need gas right? Well anyway they said that they will let everyone know whether they are hired or not by July 9th or so. I thought that was nice. Considering half the assholes that I have interviewed for haven't called or even said boo...
So I think my best bet is to probably get in at McDonald's or something along those lines. They are always hiring. Or I still think that Target or Kohl's will be better than nothing.
So I am getting scared. Ok so lets get down to the nitty gritty of things... I am pissed to all hell! Not about the wedding... Not about the fact that I haven't found a job yet... I AM PISSED that every time I ask Brian what he is doing today when we wake up... he tells me a big resounding NOTHING! I am busting my ass trying to find a job, going to all these interviews, pounding the pavement, and he just won't try. He says, "I am never going to find one. I have a degree and I am over qualified for everything..."
So he sits here at the computer or in front of the TV all day long... I get that , this is a real shitty time for us. I get that, he is depressed about the situation and is not able to provide for me. I SO GET THAT! But there comes a time when you have to say fuck it and get shit done. All I am asking him to do is try. Go work out at the grocery store or at the hard wear store. Just to fucking apply... Is it a glamorous job that pays well and has benefits??? NO. But at least we won't get fucking evicted from our apartment, at least working those jobs, we won't lose his nice car. We are so close to paying it off.
I have fucking driven a shitty car all my life so that we can afford the things that he wants and wants to do. I have sacrificed friendships and a career for this man. And he won't fucking try. I have given so many things up so that our relationship would work and its like the one thing that I ask for is a little gumption to take care of the necessities. AND the negativity... OMG... "Women in Michigan have all the good jobs!" or "I don't have a job! I'll NEVER find one." You don"t see me sitting here and being like that. I believe that I will find something... anything soon.
But the worst is the fact that he ignores me the entire time I am here, as he sits on the computer or watching TV. I mean I am trying so hard to get a fucking job.. And then he even wants the same job!!!!! So he applies to it and takes any chances of me getting hired. I found the ad. I found the fax numbers. I have made every attempt to find one yet he wants me to do it for him as well! I LOVE HIM! I don't want to be spoon feeding him jobs for the rest of our lives. .
I shouldn"t have to compete with him over a job!
I just want him to try!!! He will feel so much better about himself if he were to find it on his own. He is not useless and he won't listen to me.
So what do I do?
I guess I am just an insensitive bastard!
Here I am... sitting here in my semi-dark computer room. I have some coffee brewing and I am just printing out my wedding invitations... Should I be sleeping? Hell yes! I was just messing with the "new printer" configurations and just got it right the first time and I don't want to mess up a good thing so I decided to just print them all up at once. No pussy footing around. I want it done and over with so that I don't have to worry...
I am going to an orientation tomorrow for LifeTouch Photography. It's all the way down by my mom and dad's in Farmington. I called to see if Shelley was home and got my mom. She wanted to know if I could send an extra list of the guests down and I said that I will be down tomorrow for an interview and she said ok. I am taking all my wedding stuff down there to show her what things are costing me. Hopefully she won't add the evil side of my family...
Here is the invite. Obviously I removed info so that the Psychos out there don't fuck my day up...
INVITE WHOOO HOOO It's not that good of a scan but you get the jist...
I am very happy the way that they turned out!
I am so unbelievably scared about tomorrow. I have the second... all day interview with the advertising company. I know I can do any job as long as I am shown how to do it correctly. I also have another interview on Wednesday with anyother marketing group but its a lil further. It's in Troy. I used to live in Madison Heights so really its my old stomping grounds. TJ I love coming down to Livonia and what not so I will let you know the next time I am down that way. My parents live off of 8 mile and Middlebelt. MMMMM coffee sounds great about now but its late and I am gonna go to bed soon.
I think that if maybe they didn't kind of treat me like shit when I went in there the first time that this wouldn't be so hard. I have never had so many difficult interviews before. I interviewed on Friday with WalMArt Portrait studio cause I love taking pictures. I think that was the hardest of them all because I was supposed to have had that interview on Wednesday but I was like 5 minutes away and called the store to tell them that I was going to be late cause there was construction at the intersection right before WalMart. I was told by the portrait studio person that the woman that I was there to interview with didn't work there or there was no one by that name. Ok mind you that to get hired into the studio you have to go through this woman... So I asked to talk to the store manager. They said that there weren't any interviews even scheduled for that day.
OK so what would you think? Here I am, about to be done with unemployment I drove 30 miles there in m shitty car just to get told that there was no one by that name. I sat in the parking lot and fucking sobbed. I am just trying to provide for my family. I want to work! Ok so wouldn't you think that this lady would cut me some slack because I had to drive all that way... get told all that shit... and then had to drive all the way home to call the lady who set up the interview and she calls the lady that was supposed to be there and she is there!!!!
Good naturedly I agree to drive all the way to Lansing, which is 50 miles one way for the interview on Friday. I got all dressed up in my nice suit with my kick ass heels... I looked great. I went there and she made me wait a half hour for her. It was a nice WalMart... it had just been built. I walked over to the Subway and waited there for her. I filled out the official application while I waited.It was a decent interview but she kept asking me the same question over and over again like she thought I was stupid... Then she brought up the Not making it to the other store thing. She was like "Well you should have just come in" I was like "I was just told by your employees, that not only did you not exist, but there were no interviews being held in that store" I asked her what she would think after hearing that. Still she was a bitch. Then she drops the bomb that it only pays $8 and hour. I was like there is NO WAY that I am driving 100 miles total everyday for that little amout of money. Matter of fact in the add it said that it paid up to 30g's a year. So I didn't think that 12.00 was that much to ask... PLUS SHE COULDN'T EVEN TELL ME IF THERE WERE REALLY ANY JOBS OPEN IN ANY OF THE STORES IN MICHIGAN!!!! I fucking drove all that way and the bitch gives me shit.
So thats why I am nervous about tomorrow. It's an all day thing... What are they making us do that takes all day long? :::::sigh::::: I am scared
I went to an interview yesterday at a advertising agency in Auburn Hills, Michigan. I walked in and there were like 40 of us that were I guess applying for jobs. All of them were young people like me. Only difference was the way I was dressed and they way they were dressed. Apparently, the lady that set up my interview forgot to tell me that it was professional dress. I wasn't dressed frumpy or anything. I had bought a nice skirt and shirt for my birthday and I wore that with a pair of my nicer sandles and I looked hot...
Ok so needless to say I really felt underdressed. After the interview I went and looked at this awesome place called Catherine's. Its a plus size store that carries career selections all year round. I walked in about 7:30pm, the closr at 8, and found a 3 piece black suit and I thought it was a great deal for $109. I get up to the register and it was only $76.00. HOW FUCKING COOL IS THAT!!! That meant I had money for shoes too. So i ran over to Avenue that was just down the way... and bought a pair of high heels that I can actually wear. I told the lady I wasn't buying them unless I could run around the store in them and still be comfortable. lol so there I was.... running around Avenue in a pair of High Heels. I bought them. Normally shoes there are an arm and a leg. The ones I picked are originally $45. I got up to the register and they were $20. AWESOME!
So to recap ladies and gents... I bought a complete suit and shoes for just over $100. I LOOK SO HOT AND PROFESSIONAL! If I could find my damn digital camera I would post a pic too. Anyway I have a follow up interview at the advertising agency on Tuesday. Today I have an interview at the Photgraphy Studio in Lansing. Wish me luck!
Whiskey
Mija sent me a meme and I think I shall do it post haste. lol
our jobs I have had in my life:
1. Business Owner
2. Desktop Publisher
3. Master Engraver
4. Photographer
Four movies I would watch over and over:
1. What a girl Wants
2. Uptown Girls
3. What Dreams May Come
4. Moulin Rouge
Four places I have lived :
1. Grand Blanc, MI
2. Buffalo, NY
3. Farmington Hills, Michigan
4. Livonia, Michigan
Four TV shows I love to watch:
1. CSI
2. Big Love
3. The L Word
4. Sex and the City
Four places I have been on vacation:
1. Bahamas
2. Florida
3. Toronto, Canada
4. Upstate Michigan
Four web sites I visit often:
1. Photobucket
2. Pogo
3. Mija's Blog
4. Yahoo for its games and to chat with friends
Four friends or family that have been tagged that I think will respond:
1. Shelley
2. Gina
3. Anyone
4. Gina lol
Four of my favorite foods:
1. Chocolate
2. CHEESE! AH the POWER of Cheese
3. Any Kind of Lettuce or Weed, as Brian calls it, salad
4. did i say Chocoalate?
Four places I would rather be right now:
1. Anywhere special with Brian my love
2. on vacation with friends drinkin margaritas in Mexico
3. Animating
4. Taking Photos
Let me clarify things for everyone who apparently are reading... When I say I don't know someone... it means that I don't know them personally. When I sit down with someone for a cup of coffee or tea... that is when they are my friends. I blog here and I make no assumptions about anyone and I mind my own business until I am attacked. Yes, I know of Mija and TJ and whom ever else you are trying to hold over me. I know them, just like I know you. They are acquaintances that I have "read" and met over the internet. I am not ashamed of them, nor their lives, because that is the way they choose to live. I don't judge them nor do I judge you. Matter of fact, all I did was come to your site, like I have done several times before, to read and comment just like the rest of the general public. I enjoy their blogs, reading about their lives, just as I have enjoyed reading about yours. I take no sides in your personal matters between Mija and the rest. You are just a person on the internet. You have no importance to me, except that I will miss reading your stories and and the like. I have had no coarse words with you but you still attack me... my blog... my character purely out of spite for what other people may or may not have done or said.
Now with that clarified... my question to you is this... Can you live your life without DRAMA? How do you live... without it? I was a avid reader of yours... I am not anyone's pet or groupie. I did enjoy your blog when it was clear that you were living for better things... Just move on, get over it. If you are indeed a better person that doesn't attack people... then why do you continue to comment and send emails? That is what truly is a crock of shit. If you really have nothing better to do in your existence than to cause and or start Drama just because you can... thats really sad... Get over it, yourself, and your assumed importance in all of this shit that continues to revolve around you. There is not any drama going around anyone else but you... No one here wants or needs to hear any more bs from you. If you have a life to live then live it. Don't bother trying to start anything in this blog because whether you visit here to read and or comment you just don't matter and I just don't care.
Just Move on...
Next topic!
This would be the email that I am referring to!
I don't know you, other than to know you are close to the very group I want nothing to do with. Your comment may have been perfectly innocent or it may have been there for sarcastic reasons.
Either way, I have to tell you I am truly not interested. I'm sure you blog will bloom just wonderfully without my input.
Please refrain from coming to or commenting on my blog. Or I will not hesitate to ban you. I want nothing further to do with any of you.
DWhat kind of sick joke is this? Here is my response....
hi there,
I don't know who you are nor anything about any "group" that you refer to. If your blog is indeed Public... therefore I would only assume that it is meant to be seen by the Public, and commented on by the Public.? If you do not wish the Public to view your blog, I suggest buying an old fashioned paper journal instead.
Please also know that you threatening to ban me or my assumed affiliates from your site does not make me feel that I would have to listen or be scared of such threats. Furthermore, it makes me sad to know that you are attacking something just because you view it as malicious. There is nothing malicious about the site nor my intentions, nor my comments, for that which you make reference to. Hence, it makes me kind of suspicious as to what kind of person you are to assume so much... Misery is sweet I suppose for some...
I do however, instead of assuming and attacking, offer you a chance to change your mind at any time. Feel free to email happiness instead of malicious accusations...
Have a great and Happy day!
Post Happiness
Whiskey Wilsinski
"A Woman"
This is written in the Hebrew Talmud, the book
where all of the sayings and preachings of
Rabbis are conserved over time.
It says:
"Be very careful if you make a woman cry.
God counts her tears.
The woman came out of a man's rib.
Not from his feet to be walked on.
Not from his head to be superior,
But from the side to be equal,
Under the arm to be protected,
And next to the heart to be loved."
Pass this on to all exceptional women that you know..
and to men so they know the value of a woman.
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Ok I really think I am going insane. I am at the end of my uemployment and still I don't have a job. It's not from the lack of trying either. I have put apps in everywhere from Starbuck's to receptionist jobs. Still nothing. Michigan is so sucking right now for jobs. I have never had to wait this long to find something.
Other things... The Bridesmaid dresses have now been ordered and I am experiencing a feeling of relief. There are still a few things about all of it that piss me off but I am just gonna ignore them till the end of the wedding. I found these really cute invitations at WalMart for $20 a pack. They include the invites all the envelopes for those, reply cards and envelopes for those, thank you cards and envelopes for those and those cute foil seal stickers you put on the back. You print them up yourself but since its saving me about $100 dollars doing it myself, I say hell yeah!
I got my girls their gifts... I am thinkin on getting something else when I get a job but just something small. I still haven't heard from my parents about what they are willing and unwilling to do. Matter of fact, I haven't heard anything from them at all about anything. I wrote them a letter last week asking them to make sure that I wasn't missing anyone on the guest list, asked if they were going to contribute finacialy, and also asked if they were going to need a hotel room reserved for the wedding OH and that Brian and I want them to meet Brian's parents soon. All of those things are pretty standard to ask before the wedding. Shit, it's only like 4 months and 8 days till my wedding date. They still haven't met his parents!!!!
So I am kind of freaking out about things. Evertime I make a decision about the wedding or talk to Brian about any of the details he kind of yells at me. He says why are you changing that. I thought we were doing it this way? I am only trying to bounce idea off of him to try to cut costs where we can. It just seems that he doesn't really want to be involved. But then when I make a decision he critizises it and is like well you said this or "that doesn't make any sense" I am really sick of that.
