Well the bridal shower is now done and in the past... Chello was beautiful and got lots of great gifts... The place was great but not alot of people showed and I was disappointed that they didn't have a few hours to come and celebrate with my friend on one of her big days... Everything was completely run by Danielle... and I am not sure what my whole view on her is... But the day was nice and the food was ok. They had it at a tea house in Plymouth, MI. So we did the whole tea theme. We made baskets with a tea infuser, tea, chocolate roses... that Nicole made, and candles that I made.

Ok some people are going to be mad at me... and some already have been for a long time. Big B and I have mutually decided to try things again... after almost 5 complete days of being on the phone and talking and just trying to get things to work out, we decided to make absolutely sure that its something that we want or not. I am sure that I may be opening my self for a big fall... But what if he is the one?

Ok yeah I love this man... and yeah we have both hurt each other... So maybe we just really need to focus on us for a while and keep foreign forces and ideas from others out of it. Besides I want to make absolutely sure that this is or isn't the man for me... plus 3 years is a long time to just throw away...

So again we start a journey and hopefully this time it will work out for the best... if not then I know that I have tried everything and know that its not meant to be...

So I burn on...

Love Yall


Whiskey

Well I am here at the point of breaking because my sister whom I haven't heard from since the fuckin baby shower all of a sudden says "what are you doing tomorrow?" "Cause I think Bob can come up to see you with the baby and me too." Sorry its not my fault that you let your boyfriend rack up the cell phone bill so that you cannot pay it so that your credit is shot, and that you don't have one to come up here with to see me. You drive further down there from one end of town to the next just to get to Amandas and back and so on but you can't come see me because you don't have a cell phone. I AM SORRY I DON'T WANT TO SEE BOB!!! I WANT MY SISTER AND MY NEICE!

Ya know I am sorry but I have made every attempt to come and see my neice but my sister decides that other things are more important. She hasn't called me, sent me any pictures, or has even emailed me with anything about my niece. So yeah I am fuckin pissed off. I work a full time job... while trying to get a company started.... and still have the fuckin time and had the fukin time to call her, to make sure she was doing ok, or even just to say friggin hi. So I think that her saying that she has alot going on with just a new baby is bs... Must be nice not to have to pay for rent.. or for any bills... Cause mommy and daddy are still takin care of her and Bob who is married and they still haven't told my parents....


Still haven't gotten a simple thank you card from her since I only threw her baby shower oh and still bought her a crib, and made candles for it as well.... Lets say over $380 worth of stuff for her. Never again. Baby shower was May 21st and its now August 4th. I think its safe to say that I will never get one huh...

Shit she never even calls and I am sorry thats pathetic... Oh well.... So I am done having her treat me like I am just another figment of her imagination... I've got better things to do!



Whiskey