Today I let go.

Gone is the blame for my past sins.

Gone is the hopelessness that I feel when I find myself overwhelmed by every day life.

Gone is the shame of hidden secrets.

Gone is my wish to push everyone I love out of my life.

I hope it isn't too late. I hope the damage I have done can be reversed before I am left alone. I can no longer bear the tears that I have brought on to my Brian, watching him suffer because I suffer. Today I let him into my mind. I'm afraid he won't like what he sees. Terrified he will leave and what I will do if he's not there. I can never be alone.

Although I am never alone.

Today I am with Christ.
I can save myself. Be happy. Allow myself to be loved.
I will be whole again.


Whiskey