Well today we are pickin up our rings and then heading over to Brian's parents house. I am quite nervous as to the reaction that we are going to get from them. Its be almost 4 years since I first met them and I have to say that they are growing on me. Hell, they have been more of a family to me that my own family. So I admire them quite a bit... but its still the feeling, I think, of trying to fit in and be the woman that their son deserves. So today will be the test.

His mom and I have talked about what I would or could possibly want in a wedding in the past, and every time I say the same things. I tell her that I just don't want it to be too big cause Brian and I are really quiet and private people. Since I don't really have my side to help with expenses, I am ever aware of what Brian and I CAN and CAN'T afford. Simple and elegant is all I want, not some huge thing that no one will ever remember.

I am going to write a letter to my mom and dad and tell them that I would really like them to take part in my wedding but if they chose not to then I will just have to understand. I do. I will then just have to find someone else to walk me down the aisle. But that would be really sad if they didn't even want to do that. But then again... they are the parents that never wanted anything to do with me anyway.

But I am so very excited so I am gonna hurry and finish here... so that we can get going. Brian is at the door and tapping his foot. I told him he can wait... lol

WISH ME LUCK... HERE IS TO THE BUTTERLIES !!!



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