"After a while you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul. And you learn that love doesn't mean leaning and company doesn't always mean security. And you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts and presents aren't promises. And you begin to accept your defeats with your head up and your eyes ahead with the grace of a woman, not the grief of a child. And you learn to build all your roads on today because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans and futures have a way of falling down in midflight. After a while you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much. So you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers. And you learn that you really can endure that you really are strong and you really do have worth. And you learn and you learn... with every good-bye you learn...... "
With that I am pondering everything that has brought me to this moment in my life. It's amazing at what we seek,and keep seeking. Then when we are at our most desperate and finally willing to offer it up, to let it all go... bend our reasoning... we then find amidst all the shit, the dirty secrets, the horrible experiences that we have had to endure to get to this point in life... the clarity that was always ever so near, just far too unattainable for someone "like me" I FOUND IT!
I have found not only myself... but the path that I have been so closely trying to follow has been the correct one. That knowledge alone is simply breath taking. I have learned that no matter who is trying to hurt me, pull me down to their filth, I am Better and stronger than they will ever know.
You don't Phase me. You are nothing to me... the only reason I put up with you is because of my soon to be husband. You exist in my world only because I will not make him choose over me and his friends.
You live. You learn. You move on.
If you cannot do that then... Good bye.
With that I am pondering everything that has brought me to this moment in my life. It's amazing at what we seek,and keep seeking. Then when we are at our most desperate and finally willing to offer it up, to let it all go... bend our reasoning... we then find amidst all the shit, the dirty secrets, the horrible experiences that we have had to endure to get to this point in life... the clarity that was always ever so near, just far too unattainable for someone "like me" I FOUND IT!
I have found not only myself... but the path that I have been so closely trying to follow has been the correct one. That knowledge alone is simply breath taking. I have learned that no matter who is trying to hurt me, pull me down to their filth, I am Better and stronger than they will ever know.
You don't Phase me. You are nothing to me... the only reason I put up with you is because of my soon to be husband. You exist in my world only because I will not make him choose over me and his friends.
You live. You learn. You move on.
If you cannot do that then... Good bye.
