Ok it's really cold her today in Michigan. Yesterday it was like 75 and today is 48 so far. I did get a cool surprise today. Barb my friend from back home called me to say happy birthday. Ha! She was the first one to call. Well only one so far.
I am in a rotten depressed mood to say the least. I am 25 today and I thought that I would be further in life by now. I feel really sick about it. I thought that I had found a really good and stable job 3 years ago and here I am unemployed, searching almost too desperately for some kind of job just to get me out of the house so that I won't go crazy. Not to mention to be able to afford the wedding in October. Unemployment just doesn't cut it. Not even close.
I thought I would be married and have children by now... Fuck, it took 4 long ass years for Brian to decide he loved me enough to get married.
I just feel so unaccomplished. And today. turning 25, really seems to draw my attention to it. I will say though its not from the lack of trying.
So Brian and I went to Senior' Lucky's which is a place out by where his mom lives. They have a special where the birthday person gets their meal free. So I decided to get fahitas... omg they were soooo good and I still have enough for lunch and dinner tomorrow. So then we go to ask for the check and out pop three of the waitress with a HUGE sombrero. Plopped the damn thing on me head and sang happy birthday kinda like the mexican hat dance. Best of all... they took a picture... LOL So when I go to Brian's moms I will scan the pic and add it here.
Then we came home and Brian grabbed some best buy certificates and something he wanted to fax for a job. So we went to PetSmart, and got some stuff for the kitties and some plants for our fish tanks. Oh and also to ask how much it would be to shave Tweak our long haired cat... lol Brian then went to Best Buy to get his new video card thing.
On the way home... my phone rang and it was my mother's cell phone number. I thought is was just my sister cause she uses it to call me sometimes. Nope it was my Aunt Jean and my mom calling from their golf league thing to wish me a happy birthday, and to say thanks for the gift I had gotten my mom for mothers day. It was very short but it was her calling.
OK... my mother has never called me for my birthday... ever. Maybe she is coming around. I donno but I will be being cautious about it. Who knows.
I am in a rotten depressed mood to say the least. I am 25 today and I thought that I would be further in life by now. I feel really sick about it. I thought that I had found a really good and stable job 3 years ago and here I am unemployed, searching almost too desperately for some kind of job just to get me out of the house so that I won't go crazy. Not to mention to be able to afford the wedding in October. Unemployment just doesn't cut it. Not even close.
I thought I would be married and have children by now... Fuck, it took 4 long ass years for Brian to decide he loved me enough to get married.
I just feel so unaccomplished. And today. turning 25, really seems to draw my attention to it. I will say though its not from the lack of trying.
So Brian and I went to Senior' Lucky's which is a place out by where his mom lives. They have a special where the birthday person gets their meal free. So I decided to get fahitas... omg they were soooo good and I still have enough for lunch and dinner tomorrow. So then we go to ask for the check and out pop three of the waitress with a HUGE sombrero. Plopped the damn thing on me head and sang happy birthday kinda like the mexican hat dance. Best of all... they took a picture... LOL So when I go to Brian's moms I will scan the pic and add it here.
Then we came home and Brian grabbed some best buy certificates and something he wanted to fax for a job. So we went to PetSmart, and got some stuff for the kitties and some plants for our fish tanks. Oh and also to ask how much it would be to shave Tweak our long haired cat... lol Brian then went to Best Buy to get his new video card thing.
On the way home... my phone rang and it was my mother's cell phone number. I thought is was just my sister cause she uses it to call me sometimes. Nope it was my Aunt Jean and my mom calling from their golf league thing to wish me a happy birthday, and to say thanks for the gift I had gotten my mom for mothers day. It was very short but it was her calling.
OK... my mother has never called me for my birthday... ever. Maybe she is coming around. I donno but I will be being cautious about it. Who knows.
