I have never really been happy and as I am embarking on the most important surgery and part of my life, I feel like my mother is making a joke of me and my plight. From the conversation at the table when I finally told them about what was going on she kind of was uninterested and really didn't seem surprised that this was happening to me. Which scares me and reinforces my feelings about her not really wanting to make things better for me at all. Like she knew all these years that there was something wrong but never followed through with anything. My dad however, seemed genuinely concerned. Which was odd and felt good. It made me feel that out of all these years that he bitched and complained about what I did, looked like, and everything else that he really gave a shit...
I don't know if my mother and I will ever have the relationship that we had before and its silly for me to even hope that it could happen.
I am now at my mom and dads... They are down in Tennessee taking care of my mother's father. I am here to take some time to rest before the surgery and to watch my neice while my sister is working.
I am so happy that she has found a job. It so helps with taking care of her daughter. For so many years it has been easy for her to stay at my mom and dad's without paying anything. She has lost her autonomy and really needs to be on her own but still the baby daddy isn't helping much. I know its not easy being the other woman in a relationship... believe me... I am still one. But Don has been separated from his wife for 11 years. He is now on the virge of divorce but... its still not easy.
I Love Don but I am not sure what will become of us after all is said and done within the next year. I would love to say that everything will be wonderful and be the same... but how can I even say that it will be the same.... After all that will happen with the surgery and knowing what my demon has been throughout my life how can I allow myself to just accept what was when the future and the possibilities that could happen are so much brighter than I have ever dreamed or even have hoped for.
I will tell you this much... I will not be in the same house with Vanessa and that will be resolved before next year passes!!!
Whiskey Leigh Embers
I don't know if my mother and I will ever have the relationship that we had before and its silly for me to even hope that it could happen.
I am now at my mom and dads... They are down in Tennessee taking care of my mother's father. I am here to take some time to rest before the surgery and to watch my neice while my sister is working.
I am so happy that she has found a job. It so helps with taking care of her daughter. For so many years it has been easy for her to stay at my mom and dad's without paying anything. She has lost her autonomy and really needs to be on her own but still the baby daddy isn't helping much. I know its not easy being the other woman in a relationship... believe me... I am still one. But Don has been separated from his wife for 11 years. He is now on the virge of divorce but... its still not easy.
I Love Don but I am not sure what will become of us after all is said and done within the next year. I would love to say that everything will be wonderful and be the same... but how can I even say that it will be the same.... After all that will happen with the surgery and knowing what my demon has been throughout my life how can I allow myself to just accept what was when the future and the possibilities that could happen are so much brighter than I have ever dreamed or even have hoped for.
I will tell you this much... I will not be in the same house with Vanessa and that will be resolved before next year passes!!!
Whiskey Leigh Embers
