It's amazing all that has transpired in the last few months... without you Donald I have gained and lost. Mostly gained.

I just don't understand how I can still totally love you. Even though you broke my heart into tiny shards all over our bedroom floor. I do not know if it is that I am incapable of hating anyone. Or if it is just that you have some hold on me. You hold me without touch... and keep me without chains... Maybe I am sick... Maybe I like the pain too much to let it go.

However, I am not afraid anymore. I am not afraid of living with the idea of never seeing you again. I am not afraid that you will forever make me the enemy.

Just set me free of whatever bonds you have on me....