Your big blue eyes, your smile, your dirty face and hands, your angel face when you sleep! Its amazing how stupid I am. You are still the sweetest waste of my time. If there were nothing more there physically, emotionally, or spiritually between us... I would have been long gone. 

You are right. We click on some level that is more than you have had... but yet... you still left me for her. And yet, you are still with her. I love you and I am sure that I will never have you in my life as a staple again... I will be the other woman. I will thrust myself into that category because at this point... anything is better than nothing. I would rather hurt... than feel nothing at all. 

One Day I know you will wake up and know that something and someone is missing. I just hope that its not too late for you. 

One day you will wake up and realize how amazing I really was, and when
that day comes, I will be waking up next to the man who already
knew...

This last weekend was magical. I know we argued but for the most part it was awesome. I love you and I know you mean it when you say it to me. I believe when you tell me that she won't last. I know that I don't understand what you are trying to do... but I am still careful with me. 

I know that I don't need you to survive this life. I am no longer afraid to face not ever having you in my life... but I am hoping that I won't have to. 

I pray that you are not just playing me. I pray that you will wake up from whatever spell she has over you and return to me. Maybe I am crazy...